As you know, this blog isn’t just a highlight reel. My goal is to document the entire journey to financial independence—the highs and the lows in my journey to 10x growth. This week, it’s about my battle against my own habits.
One author I read on personal growth said something that stuck with me: “You must get used to doing things outside your comfort zone, so that being outside your comfort zone is no longer uncomfortable.”
Well, I’m not there yet. Not even close.
The Knowing-Doing Gap
In my previous posts, I’ve laid out the main points I need to follow to become a 10X person, become economically independent, and reach my millionaire goal. The problem is, I’m not following my own instructions.
Today is a perfect example. I woke up at 5:00 AM… and then stayed in bed until 7:00 AM.
The entire time, I was dozing, but also fighting that internal battle: “If you want to be 10X, you have to get up immediately.” But I didn’t. I was too tired.
The same thing happened last night. At 6:00 PM, I sat down to watch TV. My brain said, “A 10X person is productive. Take 25 minutes to relax, then get back to work.” But that’s not what happened. I stayed there until 8:00 PM.
This inconsistency is everywhere. My visualizations, meditation, writing and defining my final goal, planning the next day’s actions… none of it is constant. It’s all half-hearted.
Am I Trying to Change Too Much, Too Fast?
This forces me to ask: What’s the real problem?
Am I trying to make too many changes at once? Or maybe… does this just feel too stressful? Maybe I need a different strategy, like making changes one by one, slowly?
That makes sense. It sounds less stressful and more likely to succeed. But even that feels complicated. Which change do I even start with?
On top of this “10X study” I’m in, I’m also starting this blog, I have to define the business I’m going to launch, I’m working as a Handyman on my house to rent or sell it, and my wife and I are packing for an upcoming move.
All of this makes the journey slower and more complicated, as I can’t focus 100% on becoming 10X. But I know every person has their own challenges, so these issues can’t be an excuse for not doing what I have to do.
The "10X Growth Goals" That Feels Impossible
As I mentioned in a previous post, I must start with clarity on my goal. That’s the first step. One author said, “Set a goal 10 times the size of your current goal.”
So, I tried. I multiplied my goals by 10, and it looks something like this:
- “I am earning US$10,000 a month in passive income!”
- “My website has 10,000 daily visits!”
- “My business is worth $10M!”
- “I earn $50,000 a month!”
- “I have more than enough money to travel the world!”
But all these goals I’ve thought of… they just sound too ‘fake’ to me. They feel like pure fantasy.
Finding a Goal I Can Actually Believe In
This is likely due to my past experience, where nothing has worked. Because of that, I can’t even imagine them, let alone feel that I already possess them.
This might be why it’s easier for young people to attract positive things via the “law of attraction.”
When you first graduate from university, you have more energy, huge ambitions, and you see everything as possible. You don’t have the weight of experience and past inconveniences making it hard to imagine a grand future.
In my case, I must try to find a phrase, a goal, that isn’t just a motivating phrase, but also a goal I can manage to imagine and feel.
I know the authors say you should set a high goal, out of your reach, even if you don’t believe it.
But I personally think that if I could find a goal that is both 10X and something I feel could be possible, everything would be much easier. It would be easier to “feel” it, which the writers on the “law of attraction” say is a fundamental step.
But I haven’t been able to… yet. Maybe I just need to phrase the goal differently?
I don’t know exactly how I’ll do it. I’ve tried to find the right phrase while in a state of meditation, breathing deeply and trying to relax and concentrate on my breath. But it hasn’t worked. My mind wanders too much, and I can’t achieve much focus.
Still, I will keep trying. And I’ll keep you informed.
